Tuesday, June 30, 2009

lamenting: goodbye Michael Jackson

Last night I went to watch a opera, Dialogues of the Carmelites. My friend Laura looked stunning on the stage. I'm really pleased that I had an oppourtunity to see her performance, and had enjoyed it myself.

On the last weekend I had a great time in Ilkley with S. The weather was wonderful, and it felt like that I was back to the time when I was 18. Sometimes you do wonder how time passes so quickly, like things have never happened. It's not just a cliche of bourgeois life. It real is how I feel now.

It was on the third night when we were watching cracker. Suddenly he shouted. What's wrong? I said. Michael Jackson is dead, said S. "What"! Then I sat up to watch the news. It was a night when the sky was clear. Stars shining bright. Michael Jacoson was our shining star. Although I was never a big fan of him, he was part of my childhood/adolescent memories. When I was 12, ohh yes it was the glory 1980s, Madonna and Michael Jackson were both global stars. It was 1989 when I bought my very first Madonna's album Like a Prayer (cassette tape). It was their heyday. Wherever I went, I always could hear their hit songs. And then it came the June 1989 when the Tiananmen Massacre took place. For some reason, I always remember that summer. It feels so strange when this summer, and inexplicably it's June again, when I heard the news that Michael Jackson has died.

The whole world lamented the death of Michael Jackson. Only a little paid attention to the tragedy of the pop star's life. The world is changed. The world will never be the same.

I was so lost whe I first heard the news of the death of Michael Jackson. It was a mixed feelings of laments and shocks. Goodbye Michael. In heaven, you will never suffer from the misunderstandings. You will be smiling and finally see the world in peace and joyfulness.

All the 20 years have gone so fast like it was just a dream, but some people will always be the shining stars on our minds.


Renoir

記得我一直喜歡Renoir,每回去巴黎總是要帶回幾幅Renoir的複製畫。

我想我是喜歡那種、輕微朦朧的美麗。

Thursday, June 11, 2009

歸來

I've got back to England for 1 week. S visited me on the weekend. It was a lovely afternoon when I went to get him in the train station. I was reading the hours, and he suddenly showed up in front of me. He looked just great. Back to my flat, we exchanged presents. He got me crime drama cracker. I love crime drama, such as CSI, Law and Order, Prime Suspect, and Silent Witnesses. He always got me something that I really like!

How many years have gone by since we first met?

Sometimes I wonder why beautiful things in life could not always be there. We always miss each other no matter where we are. I got your text the other day, and that was what made me cry. I do feel that you really love me so much. I don't know what will happen in the future, but the future is coming. What I'm sure now is the certainty of your love and goodness to me. I owe all these happiness to you.

Life on Mars

請尚未觀賞過Life on Mars 一、二季的朋友勿往下讀,因為涉及結局。


=========尚未觀賞者之速速離開分隔線===========

====預先知道結局將會某種程度破壞觀賞樂趣之分隔線====


記得看完Life on Mars時,心中不知為什麼覺得很感傷,但是也讓我想起如果我思故我在,那末不能感覺或是思考的人是否存在呢?究竟什麼是真正的活著? What is something between live and death? 

也許Sam心中想望的世界是那樣的,一個不那麼by the book但是以心去感覺的世界,回來後的Sam非常想念那一個世界,有那麼一刻我在想,當現實不如你所想像,你要如何去區別現實與幻覺的差別?要如何去辨別何者為虛?何者為實呢?

當Sam往下跳的那一刻,天空好藍好藍,世界忽然又光明起來。背景音樂是David Bowie的Life on Mars,

Sailors
Fighting in the dance hall
Oh man!
Look at those cavemen go
It's the freakiest show
Take a look at the lawman
Beating up the wrong guy
Oh man!
Wonder if he'll ever know
He's in the best selling show
Is there life on Mars?



Sam跑著,開心的跑向1973年,可是為什麼、我有好哀傷的感覺呢?


BBC正在播出的Ashes to Ashes,我很期待結局。